I woke up late on the morning of October 14th and found messages and missed calls in my cell phone. They were messages greeting me because it was my birthdayyyeeyyyeyyey....!!!! It was my 37th birthday!!!
I was however surprised to receive greetings from around mid-day from two dear friends whom I thought all the while have forgotten me because I only had occasional communication with them for the past 2 to 5 years. They spared few minutes of their time just to either call or send text message of their greetings. One even tauntingly asked me, "Hey Yoli, how old are you now?"
Well, friends I just left the toe pad still a few meters away and have yet a long walk to the finish line.
I am one among few people who do not pay much attention to birthdays, special holidays and anniversaries. Besides, the meaning of these occasions are truly convoluted especially at this very generation. Most of the time I would just give thanks to the Lord and let the day pass by.
October 14 was a rainy day in Los Baños (where I was that time) so when one of my long time friends called, I mentioned to him about the day. I was told however that the rain was a blessing and implies more blessings to pour for me onthat very particular day! All I was able to say back to him was my sincere thanks. Thanks that I have friends like him who truly cares and who are very thoughtful even if I'm not and was not thoughtful enough to them. And no matter how distant we all are from each other.
Looking back then to those years that passed in my life allows myself for re-assessment. I questioned myself again as I usually do. Who am I now? Where am I now? Where do I and should I continue my walk from here?
I am a weak vessel prone to sorts of dangers along my walkway. Many times i slipped to the wrong path. Thanks though to the grace of God that restores me and stay right. If I weigh the failures in my life versus the triumphs would bring the scale into a diagonal position with the failures outbalancing the triumphs at nearly 100%.
But how did I respond to all of those failures until today? I found out though that those questions along the years in my long walk are answered with questions also. How many people have I hurt because of my insensitivity, uncaring ways, thoughtlessness, impatience and wrong values? Was I able to restore old friendships? How did I and do I treat my parents, my brothers and sisters, my husband, my daughter, my neighbors, my friends and everybody I meet and have met? How do I talk? How do I tell jokes and respond to filthy jokes? How do I care for myself or for my health? For my surroundings/environment? And most of all, how is my present personal relationship with the Lord?
I was however surprised to receive greetings from around mid-day from two dear friends whom I thought all the while have forgotten me because I only had occasional communication with them for the past 2 to 5 years. They spared few minutes of their time just to either call or send text message of their greetings. One even tauntingly asked me, "Hey Yoli, how old are you now?"
Well, friends I just left the toe pad still a few meters away and have yet a long walk to the finish line.
I am one among few people who do not pay much attention to birthdays, special holidays and anniversaries. Besides, the meaning of these occasions are truly convoluted especially at this very generation. Most of the time I would just give thanks to the Lord and let the day pass by.
October 14 was a rainy day in Los Baños (where I was that time) so when one of my long time friends called, I mentioned to him about the day. I was told however that the rain was a blessing and implies more blessings to pour for me onthat very particular day! All I was able to say back to him was my sincere thanks. Thanks that I have friends like him who truly cares and who are very thoughtful even if I'm not and was not thoughtful enough to them. And no matter how distant we all are from each other.
Looking back then to those years that passed in my life allows myself for re-assessment. I questioned myself again as I usually do. Who am I now? Where am I now? Where do I and should I continue my walk from here?
I am a weak vessel prone to sorts of dangers along my walkway. Many times i slipped to the wrong path. Thanks though to the grace of God that restores me and stay right. If I weigh the failures in my life versus the triumphs would bring the scale into a diagonal position with the failures outbalancing the triumphs at nearly 100%.
But how did I respond to all of those failures until today? I found out though that those questions along the years in my long walk are answered with questions also. How many people have I hurt because of my insensitivity, uncaring ways, thoughtlessness, impatience and wrong values? Was I able to restore old friendships? How did I and do I treat my parents, my brothers and sisters, my husband, my daughter, my neighbors, my friends and everybody I meet and have met? How do I talk? How do I tell jokes and respond to filthy jokes? How do I care for myself or for my health? For my surroundings/environment? And most of all, how is my present personal relationship with the Lord?
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